An Emotional and Reckless Side of Me

I'm hyper upset with myself.. It's hard to be myself for some times.. I tried my very best to cheer people around me and always ended in pain.. My humour doesn't work and my laughter doesnt help..

I tried to be a positive thinker at all time, but sometimes I just cant stop myself for blaming myself for my mistakes that revolves around me.. Why do they have to suffer because of me?! They deserve someone better with them..

I some times do wish I'll be erased in people's memories.. I mean a total VANISH!! But again, it's not what I can do, it's all god's will..

Now tell me what else can I do to make you happy? I'm becoming more and more stranger to myself already.. I started to lose my concious of being myself.. I'm just another selfish guy who with high ego.. I might try to be more helpful at times, but I may be doing it in a wrong way.. Making you feel bad about me..

For whatever reason it is.. I dont know how long will my laughter last.. and I dont know what will happen tomorrow.. I'm just trying to live my life to the fullest.. You may be the one to balance me up.. I'm afraid of losing you and yet, I am in pain when I see you suffer..

Harry is just another ridiculous guy after all.. Harry.. You have to cheer up more.. Always think of the brighter side.. It'll motivate you to, at least, make you feel better..

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All about the "kids"

Wahey.. Something new again.. Lately, I'd been hanging around with the four "kids" again.. (See my previous post if you don't understand who the h*ck am I saying..)

Well, actually I was kinda lazy to write about them 'cause there's too much to talk about them.. Unfortunately, I once said that "I'm gonna blog about you guys in my blog again!" and those words urged me to write about them.. They, too, urged me to write as I said those words in front of them and they keep checking my blog for updates..

So Michael, Yii Sian, Eng Kee and Ryan, don't be surprised to see your face appears in my blog again..

So, what's the interesting part of them?!

Let me guide you through these gorgeous pictures.. (Laughing evilly)

First of all.. Let me introduce you again..

Viruz019 (Michael) and Rain (Eng Kee)

This picture was taken during a trip to KLCC for the WCIT '08 Exhibition. Both of them had a nice sleep and look how cute they are when they slept so soundly especially "Rain" leaning on "Viruz019"..

Wondering why one is known as Viruz019 and another as Rain?! Well, I'll have to tell a bit about them.. The reason Mikey (Michael) regards as Viruz019 isn't because of "Celcom" (019 network) virus but it's mainly because he tried to emphasis on the "019" which is his birthday on 01st September is too into "computer" stuffs.. And about that Rain?! He is just too obsessive with Rain (The famous Korean singer) known as Rain since High School and according to them, almost the whole school knew him as Rain after a year of his "Rain" performance..

So.. ya.. that's about that Viruz and Rain..

Next.. Let me introduce you another two..

Sian (Yii Sian) and Gay Ryan

The pictures tell everything.. Sian - Narcissist King (Thought I would be narcissi enough.. but this fellow is even took his own picture using my handphone worse.. and Ryan.. He is just like what you see in the picture.. A retard mimic that can always make you laugh..

Anyway, it sounded my blog is getting kinda cruel this time.. Ofcourse, they are all nice kids.. Check out the latest picture taking together with them..

Oh ya.. and the guy in white with stripy red.. He's Boon San (excluded from the kids' list)

Information given in this blog might not be 100% accurate.. Trust at your own risk..

Well.. Till then.. Looking forward to go out with them again.. They added few more colours in my life and ofcourse added few more pages in this blog..

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Zodiac - Inside Out

GEMINI -HARD LOVER
(5/21-6/21)
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. dual personalities. Loves relationships, Addictive. Loud.

CANCER-SWEET TALKER
(6/22-7/22)
Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being In long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out.

LIBRA-GOOD IN BED
(9/23-10/22)
Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.

AQUARIUS - THE ONE U CANT TOUCH
(1/20-2/18)
Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to Have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Their love is one of a kind. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Attractive. Loud. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.

PISCES - THE SEX ADDICT
(2/19-3/20)
EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. BEST kisser. Always get what they want. Very Attractive. Easy going. RARE Find. GOOD when found. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Caring. NOT one to mess with!!!

LEO - THE SEX MANIAC
(7/23-8/22)
Very talkative. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, Fun and SEXY. Have own unique appeal. Irresistible. Most caring person you'll ever meet! however not the kind of person you wanna mess with...they will kick your ass... u might end up crying...

ARIES- THE PLAYER
(3/21-4/19)
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in bed... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.

SAGITTARIUS-THE BEST SEXUAL PARTNER
(11/22-12/21)
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. EXTREMELY SEXY. Predict future. Loves being in long relationships. Has lots of friends. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Also not a fighter, but if they have to, they will also knock the lights out of you if it comes down to it.Cool. Loves to own Geminis' in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart.

TAURUS- THE BAD BOY OR GIRL
(4/20-5/20)
Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great at telling Stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to.

CAPRICORN-THE SEXY ONE
(12/22-1/19)
Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always Wants the last word. Caring. Smart.Sweet. Loud. Loyal. Beautiful. Goofy. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy
to please.Loves to smile.Beautiful laugh.Patient.Cautious.Bit of naughty.The one and only.

SCORPIO - THE ONE !
(10/23-11/21)
Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Best kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. ONE OF A KIND.Gorgeous Smile.Not one to mess with. The best sexual partners in the zodiac. Read more...

Which one is your month of birth?!

January
Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.

February
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest And loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

March
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.

April
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confidant. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. Hot but has brains.

May
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High-spirited.

June
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!!

July
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

August
Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. No self-control. Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. in need of "that someone". Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by "no pain no gain" caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. Independent. Strong willed. A fighter.

September
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.

October
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

November
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.

December
This straight-up means you are the most good-looking person possible... Better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. One guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves music. Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Read more...